Sabotage

For the life of me I can not figure out why I feel the need to self-destruct. I go out of my way to sabotage any and every good thing that comes to me in life. Things with the new guy are going well. I panicked a bit last week, got over it and am now ready to move forward.

Then I did what I always manage to due when I panic. I texted Charlie. I couldn't take it back and just waited to see what the outcome was. Of course he texted me back and was all to eager to take me up on my offer. I don't know what I've done but I'm sure I've made another mistake...again.